This audiobook is created with the hope that it would save someone the struggle and frustration that I went through. To get them answers to the questions that frustrated me. To pass on a legacy of happiness and wholesomeness rather than one of mindlessness and frustration. To share with you the Gold Nugget, the only method that worked on me to quit alcohol when every other method, medicine and program designed to quit alcohol failed.

As an ex-alcohol addict, I could not give up addiction for 21 years, even though I kept trying. And while I was struggling with alcoholism, a lighting bolt hit our family. My 19-year-old nephew died in a car accident. I was devastated, an emotional wreck. I completely lost all drive and hope. If I could lose a kid at any moment, then what was the point in living? If life is so unpredictable and so cruel, then what is the point in praying to God? What is the point in doing anything in life? It is all going to end at any moment. Then why not just wait for death?

The question that kept eating me inside after my nephews death was - is this it? Is this everything there is to life? I have a loving family, a home, and fairly stable finances to pay my bills and save a little. What more do I want in life? And the answer was - nothing. There is nothing else left except to slowly lose what I have. If there is nothing more to life, then what am I alive for? I had no idea what my purpose in life was. If I have everything I could ask for, and if there is nothing else left to achieve except to slowly see everyone I love and everything I have being taken away from me, then why should I wait for death? Why not go for it now while I have everyone? I felt that I had already lived the best years of my life, and I was fearful of what every coming day might bring.

One of the most difficult things for me to grasp was that, even though I believed in God, why was I still frustrated and empty, and why was I not getting answers to the questions that were driving me to death?

But as the saying goes, there is light at the end of dark tunnel. When I was quite sure my life was over, the answers started coming to me, like the raindrops falling on my parched soul bringing it back to life.