A raw and intimate memoir of one woman’s experience navigating infidelity and divorce, Andrea Merkl illustrates what it means to heal trauma individually and collectively as she gave birth, endured a year-long social media detox, ran a triathlon and discovered a dissociated childhood trauma of sexual abuse.

In a heartbreaking account, Andrea shares her discoveries of what laid under the landmine of infidelity as she reckoned with generational trauma, self-betrayal, and her connection to God, showing us that everyone is equipped with the resilience and strength that is needed to heal.

This journey will leave you questioning your own self-betrayal tendencies, provide you with trauma-informed tools to heal your nervous system, dissociation, C-PTSD and inspiration to lead you down a path to a wholeness whether you have been through infidelity or not. We believe that one of the worst things that can happen to us is infidelity. What if infidelity isn’t the bad guy we all make it out to be? What if, on the contrary, it's one of the greatest gifts you can receive? Like a gateway, to something far more toxic called self-betrayal.

Self-betrayal is universal, it doesn’t only apply to infidelity. I believe most people are living a life of quiet self-betrayal, unconsciously making choices and actions from this disconnected self. And it's not always our fault, it's generational. We learn at a very young age to abandon ourselves. We self-betray to fit in, to avoid conflict, and to feel accepted. Our worth and value tied to external sources hating ourselves a little bit more each day, we become disconnected to who we are.

An unexpected outcome of forgiveness reminds us that through compassion and courage, an evolution of our soul can occur and on the other side is freedom. Passionate and illuminating, The Gift of Infidelity is an empowering and redemptive narrative of transformation, offering a message of hope and Divine love.